midnight

When the clock strikes midnight the new year begins!

I can honestly say I am so excited to leave this year behind and to start all over.

This year I left high school and entered the world of college.

I left all the stupid drama, the immature friends, and the easy life.

I am moving towards a brand new beginning and am glad to leave a bunch of things in the past.

Those memories will lay in the back of my mind, stored away and almost forgotten.

I plan to have a brand new outlook on life and I plan to make every day count!

Lets start this new year off right, and begin it with the people we love the most!

Happy 2011

stay on yo side

Its funny how things can change so quickly.

One moment you're happy, the next you are completely sad.

Why do we do that to ourselves?

Its funny how things never stay the same.

I change.

You change.

We all change.

So quickly...within a blink of an eye...nothing appears to be the same.

I want it to freeze..then rewind....then stay that way, for a very long time.

strawberry fields.

i want it to be plain, simple,& beautiful.

i want it to happen.

i want to trust it...

Care.

I'm for adoption.

Throw glitter

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect.

It means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

I assure you, I could care less.

There comes a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone

and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up.

It's realizing you don't need certain people

and the drama they bring.

Lately I get so tired of girls creating drama.....we are in college now ladies. Why can't they be like the guys...they call each other one thing and forget about it seconds later. Who really cares anymore? Just forget about the pointless drama and move on. Be happy. True friends should accept what you have to say and embrace it for a moment, then work with it in a friendly manner.True friends should be there for you no matter what...

little bird

What if I was to look at life upside down?

Would I gain a completely different view on things?

Would my life do a 180 on me and start to completely change?

What if I looked at life from a different view?

Author of the moment

My past mistakes have made me who I am today.

If I could go back in time I would have redone many things.

Many, Many, Many things.

People are always saying that you should live with no regrets,

I think that all depends.

I think that when people have to make decisions they should ask themselves,

" Would I regret this?"

I never always asked myself that question...I wish I would have.

I plan on making this new year one that counts.

A good one.

So far I am onto a good start!

I just hope that through all of these decisions I have been making,

that you were the best one yet....

I hope you will be worth it...

Knock on wood!

Conquer my heart.

I dreamt I was lying in my bed and white hands attached to no one came and attacked me.

Grabbing my arms& legs.

Covering my mouth, so no one could hear me scream.

These hands crawled all over my body and attacked me.

They held a firm grip& refused to let go.

I laid there helpless...

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I fear for my life that this will happen to me.

That something will happen & I will have no control over it...

That no body will hear me scream...

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I want so badly to trust you.

To let you know my secrets, to let myself be honest with you.

I want to forget this dream, these thoughts.

I want to be happy.

I am trying.

I am trying really hard to make this work.

Trust me.

Strange.

"And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms"

You still haunt my thoughts.

I regret you completely.

I wish I never met you and I wish I could take it all back.

I hope you drown in your mistakes& lies.

Rudolph.

Thanksgiving is over and done with& now it is time to move onto Christmas music and decor!
This is my favorite time of year. The music and atmosphere seems to put me at an extremely peaceful state of mind.
I plan on watching as many Christmas movies& listening to as much Christmas music as I want,& I can not wait to begin!

Knock, Knock

is anybody there?

I was born with little patience.

Everyone claims they don't have patience and I find this to be false.

A lot of people are patient in their own little ways.

I find no patience in me at all.

Not one single drop.

When I want something I try to succeed in getting it right away.

Right that second.

Its a horrible thing to possess, no patience.

I find that when I am at a loss of what to do about it, I escape with my pencil and paper,

& I start to draw.

Art is my route to escape.

Four AM shift.

I laid in bed that night not being able to sleep.

I was too excited to fall asleep!

I was afraid that if I fell asleep I would wake up to a reality that I didnt want.

He was too good to be true!

I lay there listening to my clock tick.....wait.

My clock doesnt make that noise......there is someone outside my bedroom.

I lay there, frozen. Trying not to breath for fear it might here me.

......it sounds like rustling.........

*BANG!*

SOMETHING IS IN THE BATHROOM.....or was that the shampoo bottle that slipped....?

Wow, I am overreacting.

Its an old house, of course its going to make noises.

Hours have gone by.

I am still wide awake.

My alarm for work goes off & I hurry out of bed.

I dress warm and head out the door.

As I am pulling out of the drive way I look up at my house.

A chill shoots up my spine as though someone had put ice in my shirt.

There is a man standing inside of my house.

Looking straight at me.

Smiling.

He slaps his hand against my front window & I watch it stick

from the blood that covers it...

He smiles.

Thats when I feel the hands slowly creep around my neck...

When she dances she goes& goes

I will fly across the stage and show you how I feel

I will point my toes and sway

I will twirl and leap, and land on my heal

I will dance all night and throughout the day

Hold me close and lift me in the air

I want to be able to move with you

Hold me close and dance, and not care

I want to be able to feel you

Lets dance all night

Lets dance all day

Lets not fight

Lets just play

Move your legs, move your arm

Jump ,spin, leap and fly

Move with me and show me your charm

Jump and spin me, please just try

Big Brother

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard

Have fun in the marines. I miss you...

Love is patient, Love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

If all friends were as true friends as Lenny& George I think we would all have it going for us.

We need to all love one another for who we are, be patient with each other and be more accepting.

Dreams feel real while we're in them.

It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange.

( My teenage obsession.)

Second star on the right.

This will be our getaway car.
This will be our ride.

We will go on an adventure,
&drive, drive, drive.

No need for money.
No need for stuff.

We will manage,
even if it does get rough.

Lets get away tonight.
Lets leave right now.

Lets go far, far away.
Lets leave this town.

Hello

I am here.

Right in front of your face.

Right in front of your blue eyes.

Notice me.

Here I stand.

Here in this spot.

Waiting.

Take my hand.

Take all of me.

Hold me close.

Lets create a happy ending.

Lets share a new kind of happiness.

Together.

Hello,

Here I am.

Hi.

My Hero.

Behind those heavy, tired eyes lies a story.

A story of a small farm boy.

A boy who grew up to be a man full of wisdom.

My grandpa has the arms of a farmer.

Though he grows old &tired, I will

never see him as weak.

Ever.

My grandpa has the words of a scholar.

Though he speaks very seldom, when he does

the room is silent & I try and take in every word.

Knowing that everything he says has a meaning.

My grandpa has a heart of gold.

When I hide my feelings & show no pain

he still knows I am in a need of a hug.

I feel safe in his arms.

Safe & secure.

My grandpa never gives up.

At times, life can let you down & sorrow never seems to end.

My grandpa keeps on going.

Through rain or shine he knows the Lord is there to guide him.

I love my grandpa.

Lets get lost together.

I want to get lost in your eyes.

I want to feel as if we are in our own little world.

For just a few minutes,

I want us to experience something no one has ever experienced.

I want us to share our own little secret to only each other.

I want you to accompany me on my adventures.

I want you to be the one.

Take me for a ride

Sometimes the words don't seem to fit.

Sometimes I find myself sitting here staring at the cursor, as if it will move on its own.

As if it will start spelling out the words of my heart without me.

Sometimes I am not sure as how to say things exactly.

Would you laugh if you knew what I was thinking?

Would it change things if you knew how I felt about everything?

Every single thing?

What if people truly knew every single thing about me?

Would that be fascinating to most,

Or would their interest be completely lost?

I wish I was that forward with most.

I wish I could just spill out my thoughts to you,

make them tumble out of my mind and land on the keys.

Typing each word I would to say.

Each word that describes how I feel about you,

How I feel about most.

Would my thoughts scare you away?

Mr.Sunshine in the morning

In the morning light

Won't you come down from my ceiling?

After reading my posts from this summer I realized how much I wasted it.

I was so immature.

The summer days drifted with no meaningful memories to them.

Whenever I look back I cringe.

I am so glad I am past all of that stuff.

So glad I'm maturing.

So glad I've moved on.

I'm so happy!

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I really want to travel right now.

I just want to get away and explore!

I want a crazy adventure to take place.

Anyone want to go to Africa with me?

Sober girls around me

they'd be acting like their drunk.

Life is good.

I have all I need right now.

Everything seems to be falling into place.

Piece by Piece.

I'm loving it!

I go to bed at night with a light heart.

I wake up in the mornings full of contentment.

Everything seems to be going my way.

Day by day.

I'm enjoying it!

The nights never seem to end.

The laughter carries on through the night.

Everything seems to be full of happiness.

Minute by minute.

I'm happy:)

Nothing can be kept a secret forever.

The words come tumbling out of my mouth.

One, by one, each word stabbing you like a knife.

I know I hurt you when I say these things.

I know I annoy you with my constant dramatic torture.

I am aware of what I am doing,But are you aware of your fault?

I didn't fall for you on my own.

Your smooth talking words did the trick.

The way you treated me made me believe it was real.

You should win an award for you performance.

It was believable.

Despite it all, I am glad we remain best friends.

I just want you to know that whenever you need someone I am here for you.

I will be here to listen to you, as I have been the past four months.

I am here for you to get through anything.

Good or Bad.

I will love you forever.

What the world needs now

is love! Sweet love!

Late night laughs.
Bonfire Air.
Friends sharing secrets.
Carefree spirits.
Summer heat.
Words can not describe my happiness.

Friends are what make everything worth while.

Maybe I need some rehab

Or maybe I just need some sleep...

The high school life has ended.

On to a new beginning.

I plan to make the most of this summer.

No one can stop me.

Drama free.

Endless Bliss.

This summer will be one to remember.

Just try and stop me.

I'll run you over.

That should be me.

I wish I could just open up to you.

I wish I wasn't so scared to speak to you.

Scared of being hurt...again.

I wish I was the only one that liked you,

The only one that gave you attention.

I wish you were my summer romance.

I wish you were mine.

You must be blind

if you can't see, You'll miss me till the day you die.

You.Are.False.Hope.
Quit being too cute.

Words are flowing out like endless rain

into a paper cup.


The memories of us still linger inside my mind.
What could I have done to fix it?
Why did you have to change?
If you were to stop with your habbits,
would they stop being your friends?

Reality sets in for me.
I want you so bad and yet I still ponder over the thought as to why?
Why should I?
I deserve ten times better,
But I still want you.

You put me through so much,
And I still want you........
Dumb thoughts.

Turn around

I have become the obsessive ex girl friend.
I.need.to.stop.
Why can't I?
Why is it so difficult.
The guy is a complete jerk.

I wish I could spill all his dirty little secrets the world.
I wish girls knew what they were getting involved with.
I wish I could ruin him for good.

Happy days, please come my wayyy!

Lets get these teen hearts beating faster

I cling.
To pointless things.
To things that will never happen again.
Why did I fall for you so hard?
I thought about you today.
The way you would bite your bottom lip
and give me that smirk.
Too cute for words.
Then that day came where you decided to change.
I met you at a wrong time in your life.
I hope you drown in your drinks.
I hope you enjoy being the circus entertainer at parties,
because that's all you will be....

One day I'll fly away

Leave all to yesterday.

Love seemed like an innocent word to use.
Its four letters and has multiple meanings, how bad can it be?
Once I used that word the word "trust" seemed to follow it...
Trust and Love.
One day I discovered I had lost the word "trust" and "love" decided to follow it.
I hope to find those two words one day...

Goodbye my almost lover...
So long my closest friend...

That should be me

You hurt me
You ruined me
You broke me

I loved you
I trusted you
I wanted you

Only you...

Love no one
Trust no one
Have no one

Were your thoughts...

I hope these thoughts make you happy when you end up alone
I hope you miss me when you drown in your misery
I hope love does not knock on your door

I should hate you.....
Why do I not?

The answer to why...

As I lay in bed this morning, I thought of how many ideas come into my head each second of the day, how many theories I think of, how many dreams I have gained, and then the question of,"why do I keep them so bottled up inside?" Came to my mind. So this, my friends, is why I am starting a blog.
I don't expect anyone to read it, or find it exciting or entertaining at all. I feel this is the best way, for me, to keep my thoughts organized.
So let us begin.