Starting to realize life is short. Figure out if the people you are hanging out with are bringing you up or bringing you down.

I've had people laugh in my face, dumb me down to make them look like a genius, have me stick up for them but walk away when I need them to stick up for me.

I've had friends tell me that my morals are stupid, Jesus isn't real, I stand for nothing right and they are completely correct.

I've had friends tell me that I don't know how to run things, I don't know how to do this or that.

I've had friends tell me how to run my relationships, what to say, how to act, what to wear.

I've had friends pick a different friend,a side, over me.

I've had friends yell at me because I did "too good of a job on that".

I've had friends who have loved me at my best and left me at my worst.

"friends"

I'm not perfect. I'm a pushover. I judge fast and tend to be anti social or straight up awkward half the time. I have more opinions then I know what to do with and I know I am no where close to the greatest person on this planet, BUT

life IS short. I will no longer be brought down my insecure people. I will choose to live my life with positive energy and no longer surround myself with the negativity that people try to bring into this world.

I will kill with kindness, not because I am a pushover, but because I will know that if you need to bring others down you probably need the most kindness out of us all.

I will pray.

I will love.

I will tell myself daily, I am enough.

Don't like my style? I'll show you to the door.

cheers to perfect

pumpkin eaters

to the cheaters who create excuses.

to the desperate people who are never good enough.

to the continuing cycle of unhappiness.

end it.

to the people always wanting more.

to the ones who will never be enough

to the emptiness of both hearts.

stop it.

to the ones setting themselves up for divorce.

to the ones who can control their own fate.

to the hurtful feelings.

quit it.

to the disrespectful acts/words.

to the ones backing them up, because it shows they care.

to the realization it will never stop.

walk away/

don't make excuses, don't stay with them, stop it.

that's not love.

love is everlasting, it does no falter. 

                           Who decided that if you were born a diff color it was a bad thing?

                                    Who decided white would be the dominant color?

          Who forgot to travel the world, or look at a map before realizing we all look different?

AND who decided to continue this, because apparently we have nothing better to worry about except                                                             for the color of our skin.

thoughts of an insomniac

Haha, so I thought of starting up a new blog,,,then i realized that i already had one, so i re-opened it. 
I tell you, its like looking through your old myspace... the adult Emily is shaking her head at the younger Emily right now....goodness.
Moving on!

Insomnia sets in around the same time. every night. Mocking me,"You will be up all night thinking! You will have the strangest thoughts enter your mind!"

Ladies and Gents, be prepared for a whole new set of blog entries to arrive...uff dah